Three more days till the marathon.
I honestly am not feeling anything right now. I expected to be giddy, anxious, excited, scared, etc etc etc, but to be honest, I don't feel any particular emotion towards it other than : "let's get this thing finished with already."
It's probably because I have been training for it and thinking about it non-stop for months and months, and now that it's finally here, but I'm stuck in taper mode and getting bored, I just wanna get done with it already and move on to other challenges.
It's also because training has taken up so much of my time and I'm kind of anxious to do other things as well, like maybe start studying for the GREs or something.
I'm also scared for my legs because they hurt. Though not as bad as last week, they are far from feeling fresh. Sluggish with a touch of dull pain. Lovely. I did my last run before the marathon on Tuesday... 3 miles and I was spent. Sucking wind, super slow, muscles lacking power. WTF? I think it's because of PMS-ing. I really hope "that" doesn't happen on Marathon day....
But why the eff am I being such a negative nancy? I expected to be overcome with positivity... so why am I feeling like this? I surely expected to be pumped up like I was for the Maui HM. What's changed? I guess I'm letting other life concerns and issues to cloud over my happy marathon bubble. I need to shake off these negative non-running issues, and focus all my energies on getting pumped for the marathon. I'm gonna need all the mental energy in the world if I want to finish all 26.2 miles. I can't step on the starting line with all sorts of life worries in my head. I don't need to be thinking about how the eff I'm gonna study for the math portion of the GREs or what the hell I'm gonna do about my "career."
Repeat after me: Marathon. Marathon. Marathon. Marathon. It will be fun. It will be fun. It will be fun. It will be fun.
I will do my best to channel all my positive thoughts for the next three days, and have a super fantastic first marathon experience. Remember, it will be fun. It will be fun. It will be fun.
Come on Julia! You can do this!